Do you ever have one of those days (or weeks) where you just can't figure out how you feel? I think the last week has been a roller coaster of emotion and FOR NO REASON! The angry monster that lives deep inside me has threatened to claw his way out several times. The psycho cry-baby has been bubbling out here and there (thankfully, not full blown and easily wiped away where no one could possibly notice). The sarcasm that is usually free-spirited and funner, has a little too much bite to it.
Why do we have to have so many freaking hormones? I can't take it. I am sick of craving foods that I can't find and eating everything in my path to compensate. I am sick of unsuccessfully communicating with my husband, and knowing that it is largely my fault, and then feeling hurt that an argument has ensued when I STARTED IT! I am sooo tired of my life feeling like it is not balanced and that I am unbalancing my children in the process. WHAT DO I NEED?
Oh, blah whatever.
Another day another room to clean. Love my kids and laugh with them. Read some scriptures. Try to find a fabulous recipe for dinner. Try to be a little better. Take on the world, with my children in hand. Lay with them and hold them tight. Find someone to help. Be grateful for my life. See, I know what to do. Now if the hormones would cooperate. And once again, no I am not pregnant.
6 comments:
Jeri Dawn this post totally cracks me up, especially since I can completely relate! Particularly this last week, I can't figure it out, I guess it's just that ugly monster you described.... perhaps I have one too!
I'm 'in touch' with the Dewey sisters via email only. Michelle emailed me and we've toyed with the idea of getting everyone together for lunch and to catch up. I'll let you know if/when this actually happens. What do you mean, Marie's updates? Does she have a blog? You must let me know.
Shelly's blog is montanajohnsons.blogspot. You def need to add it to your list, she's a crack up that girl.
Corey is in RI going to grad school in Holistic Healing... who knew! Oh wait, you probably did. Just not me.
I'm glad someone appreciates my music selection. I sure do! I'm borderline obsessed with music and finding new tunes to tantalize my music-lovin ears!
Well all I can say is at least I am pregnant so I at least have a reason for the next few months to act like that. I understand 110 percent though. I really could deal with out the hormones :).
This is me, all of the time. I think sometimes I really scare my husband - and nephew - to death!
So good to be back in touch, even if it is only through our own ramblings. It's also good to know that someone other than myself has these same days!
I know how you feel. Yesterday, while viewing General Conference, I was so annoyed with my kids for basically just being in the same room as me. I ordered everyone "OUT!!" and then President Monson started talking about enjoying your children and not wishing for time to pass. I thought "Oh GREAT! I suck!!"
It feels good to know that everyone has those days.
I think everyone has those days/weeks/months too. But few are brave enough to really let on how they really feel. I hope that things start looking up soon and that the monster in you (not that I believe that you have one) goes away for good. Thank you for listening to me the other night talk and talk. Also thanks for the advice-I appreciate it!
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